Date:
15 Feb, 2015
My baby boy,
In a few weeks you will achieve a big milestone of your
life. You will turn one! Time literally just flew by. From a helpless newborn
to a very naughty toddler, you have grown leaps and bounds.
March 1st, 11:39am. Moments after I was taken in
for my c section, dad and I heard your first cry. You were so little with so
much hair! You gave us a new definition.
We were Swati and Sharath few moments ago, we were mom and dad now; mom
and dad to a little bundle of joy, Shahshwat. From a couple we became a family.
A family that constituted you, me and dad. You completed us in every possible way.
The past one year has been a roller coaster for both of us,
to say the least. You tried hard to fit
into a new world and I tried hard to fit into a new role. Every day was a new
day for both of us. We celebrated our small successes, wept over our failures
and in the process gained a ton of life experience. I still remember the first
time I was successfully able to breastfeed you. I felt like a winner! Do you
remember the umpteen times you tried to crawl? You mastered the skill
after 4 months of persistent efforts. What a celebration it was!
The past year was also a year of learning and teaching. You
aced many motor skills but still have a long way to go with your language
skills. You say ‘amma’ and associate the word with hunger and pain, not
necessarily me. It’s funny how you say ‘amma’ and run into your dad’s arms at
times. You taught me patience, you taught me resilience and you taught me
multi-tasking and time management. I loved learning all my new skills and am
glad to tell you that am getting pretty darn good at them J
The past year was also filled with umpteen challenges. From
the day your paternal grandparents left to this day, you have fallen sick every
other week. With sickness came food rejection, sleepless nights (for you and
me) and extreme crankiness. I will not
lie. There have been moments when I thought I’ve reached the breaking point, that
I cannot handle this ‘motherhood’ thing anymore. We bounced back each time, you and me, thanks
to your awesome dad. I remember this one incident when you were very ill and
dad and I took turns to stay up with you entire night. I had an important
presentation the next day with the CTO of the company. I woke up at 7, saw your
sullen face and was not sure if I would be able to leave you and get going.
Your dad decided to skip work and stay with you. He hugged me and said’ Do what
you need to. I will stay back.’ I put on my makeup and rocked the presentation
with a game face. When I came back I felt blessed to see you all snuggled and happy
with daddy.
Finally, it was a
year of bonding. A bond like no other.
After a year of being
with you, I can’t imagine my life without you.
I am still coping with the pace at which you are growing! So long ….till Feb 15, 2016. Love you.
Yours always,
Amma
Yours always,
Amma
